How’s about an update on some things from the past couple of weeks?
1A) The tulips are getting raggedy, as tulips are wont to do. But, the whole rest of the yard has exploded into life. In a mostly good way. The landscaper was an almost genius — planting things in the yard so that just as one thing fades away, another begins to bloom. HOWEVER, they made one fatal mistake. There are two beds in particular where it looks like a miniature rain forest has taken over. I tell you what, when we move into and own a house, I’m gonna plant exactly one daylily plant. Because that is all you need. Whoever landscaped our yard planted about, oh, 90 of them. And they are bound and determined to steal the whole dang show. These girls cannot contain themselves. And it is back-breaking work to keep them in line.
1B) On a more metaphoric note, I continue to strive for the light. I find it hard. My sarcasm is strong. I like sarcasm. It is funny. But it is not open and loving. It hurts people. Especially me. So I am working on not dishing out what I cannot take. I do ok. But when someone is sarcastic with me, it flips a trigger in me and all hell breaks loose with my tongue. It is back breaking work to contain myself too.
2) I have not eaten a single peanut since then.
3) They did not sing I Am the Bread of Life. But it was a very nice sermon. It was about hope. And since then, I often think. It’s Friday, but SUNDAY’S COMING!! which is something the preacher said over and over in a very heartfelt and encouraging way.
4) The going back to school plan is moving slowly, but surely. The program I want to start at only accepts students in the fall, and I have missed the deadline. My decision was ill-timed. So I have an advising appointment next week to see what I can do so that I don’t have to wait a full year to begin my studies. Because oh my God, waiting is so lame.
I have been very thankful for the encouragement I’ve gotten since posting about my decision to go back to school. I, unfortunately, care too much what others think of me. And the announcement was nerve-wracking because of all the disappointment I imagined people feeling. But if anyone is disappointed, and I suspect you are out there, you have graciously kept your big trap shut about it.